

This post is kind of an extension of the last, and could be an ongoing series, but I won't think that far ahead. Reading my previous post might give you a little more insight into this one.
So continuing on the premise that we are a product of social conditioning since birth, from all the input of the "world" around us. And that this is what created our ego, and all our supposed wants and needs. Lets look at our thinking, and the possibilities surrounding that process. As we live in the awareness of the moment we notice thoughts arising about our experience. And as we look or reflect on these thoughts, while viewing the flow of them with no judgement. We start getting closer to our "essence" by realization.
We should have a "wondering attitude" about what is creating our feelings, sensations, and thoughts about the present moment. Pictures or images may arise from what's coming up. Again let these images come gently, like bubbles rising to the surface of a pond. You might have a sudden awakening. You could see things that astound you. You might even say things like, Wow! now I see why I feel this way about what I am experiencing. You might see an incident in your life that is triggering the emotional response your having at the moment. Sensations, could arise in your body. Whether they are pleasurable or not, let thoughts about them float to the surface. Are you causing this pleasure or pain because of an earlier event?
Suppose you say yes, an event happened when I was 12 years old. The question then arises. But how could that event have anything to do with my preconditioning. I wasn't in my formative years? OK, so take that event and trace it back further. Don't force it just let it happen. As you trace this "thread" back, (and this could happen all in just a few moments or minutes) you begin to see that there might be a pattern of addictive thinking, or a "series" of events. The real kicker comes when you have a vision of what might have been the original stimuli that caused this thread of events, and or addictive thinking. You might also see how that this pattern is something that became part of the ego. It might be such an entrenched part of your ego, that it (your ego) makes you feel like you need to keep it.
The ego may feel threatened if it was to not have this addictive thread or compulsion. On the other hand your true self may feel a whole lot better if you didn't have this way of thinking coloring the world. It would be like lifting a burden from your shoulders and removing something that might be blocking an energy channel in your aura. This could then even be manifesting as that sensation in your physical being. Letting go of this thread of preconditioning could free you of tension in your body.
Is this going to be a difficult thing ridding yourself of this thinking addiction? Maybe it boils down to this. How difficult do you want it to be? Sometimes you might have to form an alliance with your ego and higher self. Make an agreement that you will be gentle with the ego. Don't start a war within yourself. Make a bridge between the ego and your higher self or "sage" self. All relationships take time to develop. Should the one within be any different? Work with it at your own speed. As you continue this "awareness in the moment" process, as time goes on things become easier. You begin to see more clearly the patterns of addictive thought. You begin to see a cause and affect. Not with just thinking, but with your physical addictions as well.
Just remember as you practice this awareness process, not to judge, condemn, or beat yourself up. Chances are that whatever it is that is manifesting in your life that's not serving your best interests, might have come from a lack of compassion or love in the first place. So give your self plenty of love. This is a good way to heal and become enlightened in the process. To me, being enlightened is removing the heavy load and becoming a lighter being, or light being. So ponder these thoughts, and begin a new journey as a wanderer and wonderer of life. Make this the first day of a new healing journey and a new life. The life you really want.
-Thunderhands
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